Maybe I'm Amazed-Jem

Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Love Me All The Time
Maybe I'm Afraid Of The Way I Love You
Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Pulled Me Out Of Time
And Hung Me On A Line
Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way I Really Need You


Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe I'm A Lonely Girl
Who's In The Middle Of Something
That She Doesn't Really Understand

Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe You're The Only Man
Who Could Ever Help Me
Baby Won't You Help Me Understand

Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You're With Me All The Time
Maybe I'm Afraid Of The Way I Leave You
Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Help Me Sing My Song
Right Me When I'm Wrong
Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way I Really Need You


Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe I'm A Lonely Girl
Who's In The Middle Of Something
That She Doesn't Really Understand

Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe You're The Only Man
Who Could Ever Help Me
Baby Won't You Help Me Understand

Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You're With Me All The Time
Maybe I'm Afraid Of The Way I Leave You
Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Help Me Sing My Song
Right Me When I'm Wrong
Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way I Really Need You

....sometimes when i can't find my own words to go with my feelings,
I believe God (the Only Man) gives me some,
Other times He gives me an image, & in times like these...
He gives me a song...

“We shouldn’t ask: what does a person need to know or be able to do in order to fit into the existing social order? Instead we should ask: what lives in each human being and what can be developed in him or her? Only then will it be possible to direct the new qualities of each emerging generation into society. The society will become, what young people as whole human beings, make out of the existing social conditions. The new generation should not just be made to be what the present society wants it to become.”

Rudolf Steiner

Where True Charity and Love Dwell Ubi caritas

Where true charity and love dwell, God is there.

Since the love of Christ has joined us in one body,
Let us all rejoice and be glad now and always.
And as we hear and love our Lord, the living God,
So let us in sincerity love all people.

As we are all of one body, when we gather
Let no discord or enmity break our oneness.
May all our petty jealousies and hatred cease
That Christ the Lord may be with us through all our days.

Now we pray that with the blessed you grant us grace
To see your exalted glory, O Christ our God,
Our boundless source of joy and truth, of peace and love,
For ever and for evermore, world without end.
—Latin; tr. Joyce MacDonald Glover

so now imagine, 33 Holy Sisters sweetly singing these words
while sitting among them surrounded by Holy words
that hover over one whose heart is full...so very full

of the billions of them that are
they never miss being with each other
because they are never apart
not one

truly

sometimes scattered about
sometimes so close to seem as one
sometimes placed in a special formation
sometimes
yes sometimes uniquely identified
even called out to shine a little less brightly

they simply appear
they simply appear every night
they simply appear on the other side of the world

how without rest
what draws them out
why there is no motivation
where else can there be such peace
when encouragement is no longer necessary
who really knows what causes them to shine at all

the One who created them
they are because they have been chosen
they are because they have been chosen

they may never really know each other
or feel completely known
they have never known one minute alone
how resistance can take hold
or what is meant to be forgotten

that is the mystery of it

still no matter what
even the few who fall from time to time
all can be certain that a special place is held for them
together they are free
together they are one
just as they have always been and forevermore will be

that is the beauty of it

they have been called the galaxy... the universe... heaven... eternity...

they who have come
to commune
and be
community

Journey begins
A handful of faithful
Committed together
Opened hearts
Broken & bruised
Souls cared for
Wisdom & Folly
Experienced & Understood
Living fully : Awakened
Letting go...Love.

 

See, I am doing a new thing!
       Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
       I am making a way in the desert
       and streams in the wasteland.

 The wild animals honor me,
       the jackals and the owls,
       because I provide water in the desert
       and streams in the wasteland,
       to give drink to my people, my chosen,

 the people I formed for myself
       that they may proclaim my praise.

isaiah
43:19-21

"Concerning all acts of initiative
(and creation)
there is one elementary truth,
the ignorance of
which kills countless ideas and splendid plans:
that the moment one definitely commits oneself,
then providence moves too.
All sorts of things occur to help one
that would not otherwise have occured.
A whole stream of events issues from the decision,
raising in one's favour
all manner of unforseen incidents
and meetings
and material assistance
which no man would have dreamed would come his way.
I have learned a deep respect for
one of Gothe's couplets:
"Whatever you can do, or dream you can,
begin it.
Boldness has genius, magic, and power in it.
Begin it now."

~ W.H. Murray,
•The Scottish Himalayan Expedition•

as i read this selection from "the War of Art" : break through the blocks and win your inner creative battles - Steven Pressfield
i am inspired, and encouraged that i have gotten off to a good start.
however, more deeply i have a sense that there is surely something
in the beginning stages for me,
and what i fear most...
is that it may not be what i have decided it should be.