"to live reverently, deliberately, and fully awake - that is what it means to live in the promise, where the wait itself is as rich as its end" ~ Barbara Brown Taylor
is screaming that THERE IS NOTHING OK ABOUT ANY OF THIS!
and i know that it has nothing to do with insecurity, emotional or financial instability, or even the fear of needing to know a thing.
because do you know what?
i. KNOW. this. fear.
this fear is so familiar to me. i have spent an entire lifetime avoiding this fear. but i know it. hidden it so deep that its the only thing visible in the darkest times. but i mercifully know it.
still all i want is to just be o.k.
and then i am reminded that just o.k. is not what i am made to be.... or marked to become...
and yes. i KNOW this, too. and it is so familiar to me. and i have spent an entire lifetime avoiding this gift. and i know it. and i have hidden it so deep that its the only thing visible in the darkest times. but truthfully i know it.
and then comfort comes even still as everything inside of me is screaming that THERE IS NOTHING OK ABOUT ANY OF THIS!
{ "everything will be okay in the end. if it's not okay, it's not the end." –unknown }
and i know that it has nothing to do with insecurity, emotional or financial instability, or even the fear of needing to know a thing.
because do you know what?
i. KNOW. this. fear.
this fear is so familiar to me. i have spent an entire lifetime avoiding this fear. but i know it. hidden it so deep that its the only thing visible in the darkest times. but i mercifully know it.
still all i want is to just be o.k.
and then i am reminded that just o.k. is not what i am made to be.... or marked to become...
and yes. i KNOW this, too. and it is so familiar to me. and i have spent an entire lifetime avoiding this gift. and i know it. and i have hidden it so deep that its the only thing visible in the darkest times. but truthfully i know it.
and then comfort comes even still as everything inside of me is screaming that THERE IS NOTHING OK ABOUT ANY OF THIS!
{ "everything will be okay in the end. if it's not okay, it's not the end." –unknown }
"through the loveliness and power of her dream world she was now, in her old frock and botched shoes, very likely the loveliest, mightiest and most dangerous person on earth"
"Man, in his weakness and shortsightedness believes he must make choices in this life. He trembles at the risks he takes. We do know fear. But no. Our choice is of no importance. There comes a time when our eyes are opened and we come to realize that mercy is infinite. We need only await it with confidence and receive it with gratitude. Mercy imposes no conditions. And lo! Everything we have chosen has been granted to us. And everything we rejected has also been granted. Yes, we even get back what we rejected. For mercy and truth have met together, and righteousness and bliss shall kiss one another.
"Through all the world there goes one long cry from the heart of the artist: Give me a chance to do my best. "
"our longing is our pledge, and blessed are the homesick, for they shall come home."
"God made the world round so we would never be able to see too far down the road."
"Difficult times have helped me to understand better than before how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way, and that so many things that one goes worrying about are of no importance whatsoever."
"It's an odd feeling-farewell-there is some envy in it. Men go off to be tested for courage and if we're tested at all, it's for patience, for doing without, for how well we can endure loneliness."
"One does not travel by plane. One is merely sent, like a parcel."
(Translated from Danish)" — Isak Dinesen (Karen Blixen) (Babette's Feast and Other Anecdotes of Destiny)
....more - http://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/8147.Isak_Dinesen
"Through all the world there goes one long cry from the heart of the artist: Give me a chance to do my best. "
"our longing is our pledge, and blessed are the homesick, for they shall come home."
"God made the world round so we would never be able to see too far down the road."
"Difficult times have helped me to understand better than before how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way, and that so many things that one goes worrying about are of no importance whatsoever."
"It's an odd feeling-farewell-there is some envy in it. Men go off to be tested for courage and if we're tested at all, it's for patience, for doing without, for how well we can endure loneliness."
"One does not travel by plane. One is merely sent, like a parcel."
(Translated from Danish)" — Isak Dinesen (Karen Blixen) (Babette's Feast and Other Anecdotes of Destiny)
....more - http://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/8147.Isak_Dinesen
