cHeRRyTeA!
Lead
Here is a story
to break your heart.
Are you willing?
This winter
the loons came to our harbor
and died, one by one,
of nothing we could see.
A friend told me
of one on the shore
that lifted its head and opened
the elegant beak and cried out
in the long, sweet savoring of its life
which, if you have heard it,
you know is a sacred thing,
and for which, if you have not heard it,
you had better hurry to where
they still sing.
And, believe me, tell no one
just where that is.
The next morning
this loon, speckled
and iridescent and with a plan
to fly home
to some hidden lake,
was dead on the shore.
I tell you this
to break your heart,
by which I mean only
that it break open and never close again
to the rest of the world.
~ Mary Oliver ~

my novice contribution to eighth letter which didn't quite make the list

                 
                               To the church in North America,

Dear people,

                I simply offer to you this one question:

                                             Are we willing?

Are we willing to receive one another into the harbor?
– the kind of harbors that provide shelter rather than a place for storing souls for future use.
Are we willing to open our eyes to the unseen in each other and ourselves? 
Are we willing to go to the places we have merely heard calling out to us, from within?
Are we willing to go without hesitation into those places of the unknown?
Are we willing to completely absorb the moments of joy that pour over us and through us?
Are we willing to listen to the stories of our lives?
Are we willing to share these stories with others when we do?
Are we willing to be wakened and available to each other and ourselves?
Are we willing to be that place where the broken can be healed?
Are we willing to be a home where the hidden places can be safely revealed in the hearts of God’s people?
Are we willing to have our own hearts broken open to never be closed again to the rest of the world?

                                                          Thy will be done -?-
…on earth as it is in heaven.
               
Blessed Be,
Charity
cHeRRyTeA!
  My flesh and my heart may fail,
       but God is the strength of my heart
       and my portion forever.
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cHeRRyTeA!
May all that is unforgiven in you
Be released.

May your fears yield
Their deepest tranquillities.

May all that is unlived in you
Blossom into a future
Graced with love.

...i signed up for my first online e-course that just happens to be titled "Practicing Spirituality with John O'Donohue". really?! it is one of those things that is truly the holy spirit at work on behalf of me. the last entry i wrote here was a blessing from his book "To Bless The Space Between Us". at the time it felt like the best entry to date and that it would be the beginning of a million more but then something got stuck, i kept feeling like my life was on pause and i was waiting for it to be reset to play, but then it wasn't and then that feeling began to settle in and it felt like it would be the last entry that could possibly come out of this being.

that was april.

our life has been in transition since november, mainly due to our decision to scale back so that my husband could begin doing work of his heart. that meant we would need to seriously make some changes in the lifestyle that we currently lived, being very well provided for financially, at least. a quite comfortable, safe, secure, LoVeLy life. i was all over it! this has to be what God wanted for us, we were doing it for the good of the kingdom, for His people. it was true, i was at peace, friends and family were thrown off by how positive i was and that I was not worried. that, we are all familiar with, in me. since the day i was born...well, since the time i started to believe that i needed to be my own protector and provider...it was not me, certainly, not that me. but it was a truer me, and i was A FreaKiN 'live.
until april.
the decisions we were making were not typical of our ways up to this point. basically, we were living day to day, minute to minute fully on God to provide for us. for worriers, which i am, making decisions doesn't come easily...simple choices are usually painfully made, replayed a variety of ways, and monumental once it occurs... then re-evaluated and immediately followed by remorse which is held deeply in reserve, for the upcoming opportunities to be met with indecision and seeking others (typically falling to my husband, but then honestly anyone else trustworthy by my standards and nearby, usually is suitable) help to make decisions, ultimately relying on them to just do the deciding. to be so laissez–faire with some fairly significant changes could be seen as careless and irresponsible at times. two more characteristics of who i am to the core, careFULL and RE-E-esponsible. but again, i knew that it would be okay because this was what kingdom life is meant to be, right?
until april.
for some reason april was the month i was looking forward to, my Estimated Time of Arrival, our lives would be saved just in time. we were not going to lose everything, we were giving it all away, this was going to be our resurrection with Jesus. and i knew with my whole heart that He was going to do it without relocating. time was running out, soon it was the 11th hour. but i know how this part of the story ends. it will be okay. then the 11th hour and 59th second.


oh, no. i know how this part of the story ends


he doesn't take the cup away?

he doesn't take the cup away.

clock strikes 12

oh, no...this is not easter? it's april but its not easter.

...it is good freaking friday

we pack our boxes, a family of 5. no place to go, but the boxes are packed. we had offers from other families to come stay with them, one family has 6 children, has relocated to the inner city, and has been remodeling a warehouse space in hopes of creating a life of community. that could be interesting, what a generous offer but we just need a place to transition, a place to rest, so that we can get on our feet again...we are not looking for a home.

so here it is july, we have been living in a warehouse, in the inner city for nearly 2 months. good days find our family of 5 sharing a table with a family of 8. laundry gets done for 13. children are playing around the clock. the older ones care for the younger ones. men work together. moms share a cup and the cares of our hearts, feeling at home. of course there are moments of discomfort, but then we walk out the door...not to beautiful century old charming homes that have been cared for with children swinging from the strong limbs of the best trees beneath the shade they give, year round as dogs being walked lap refreshingly from overflowing streams trickling from freshly watered green lawns. we step out to centuries of brokenness that has landed on the souls of the people on the street, children finding ways to endure the heat and cold as they await the arrival of the metro, on benches marked by another hoping not to be seen in the dark but to be known by their unique colorful words, the dogs around here bark loudly from behind ten foot high fences as the homeless hopelessly swagger by...restless...so thirsty...waiting for water...

and then i ask how in this world, on this earth, in america, at work, at church, around the corner, on our front steps, in our homes ... can we bless and be so blessed with this space between us?






holy experience
cHeRRyTeA!
"Keeping Me Alive"

It's like I never lived
Before my life with you
So much was missing here
I never even knew
I still picture the place we were
When I fell into your world

My heart is in you
Where you go you carry me
I bleed
If you bleed
Your heart beats
Inside of me
You're keeping me alive

I don't know why feel this way
But something's right
You're like the morning air
Before the light arrives
No more lonely and
No more night
No more secrets to hide

My heart is in you
Where you go you carry me
I bleed
If you bleed
Your heart beats
Inside of me
You're keeping me alive

I'll hold you near
Together, we'll never die
Your love is keeping me alive

My heart is in you
Where you go you carry me
I bleed
If you bleed
Your heart beats
Inside of me
You're keeping me alive
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cHeRRyTeA!
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cHeRRyTeA!
may your new work excite your heart
kindle in your mind a creativity
to journey beyond the old limits
of all that has become wearisome.

may this work challenge you toward
new frontiers that will emerge
as you begin to approach them
calling forth from you the full force
and depth of your undiscovered gifts.

may the work fit the rhythms of your soul
enabling you to draw from the invisible
new ideas and a vision that will inspire.

remember to be kind
to those who work for you
endeavor to remain aware
of the quiet world
that lives behind each face.

be fair in your expectations
compassionate in your criticism
may you have the grace of encouragement
to awaken the gift in the others heart
building in them confidence
to follow the call of the gift.

may you come to know that work
which emerges from the mind of love
will have beauty and form.

may this new work be worthy
of the energy of your heart
and the light of your thought.

may your work assume
a proper space in your life
instead of owning or using you
may it challenge and refine you
bringing you every day further
into the wonder of your heart.

~to bless the space between us - john o'donohue~


...congratulations :: sincerely, without a doubt, YoU DiD iT! simply aMaZiNg.
what an adventure we are on together, but with this same confidence, may we find ourselves saying, WE DiD iT! every time we get in that little raggedy old boat, off sun drenched sandy shores, sailing away into the unknown-maybe because i forgot to bring the map, coasting through the surface of such calm and peaceful waters, lulled to sleep by way of the most familiar streams, shot out into the overwhelming vastness-maybe because you weren't paying attention, being beaten by the treacherous waves, rescuing you-rescuing me from the plank and then some from overboard, only to be dared to jump in again of our own free will, waking up down under in the beauty of the deep-maybe because you pushed me or i ndragged you in, coming up for air, catching our breath and making it to the other side, digging our hands into the new earth, opening up that buried treasure, to what we are surely surprised to find... only then to give it all away
-because we will, that is what we do and why we have come this far
...hand in hand in hand in hand in hand.



holy experience
cHeRRyTeA!
Beautiful Things

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OR7VOKQ0xJY&feature=youtube_gdata

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make me new, You are making me new

Brighter Day

At the start there was love
And life began in Him
Creation falls, Creator gives
The promise of a better day

We are not there yet

Let it come, let it come in
Love is here, Love is coming
Heaven is breaking open
Heaven is breaking open

Love came down and hope was found
Life began again
A brand new start
Yeah a brand new start
The promise of a brighter day

Love came down and hope was found
Now we’re waking up to a brighter day
Oh brighter day brighter day
Oh brighter day brighter day

Oh brighter day
We’ll see a brighter day

Heaven
I don't know what you've been told but
heaven is comin' down to the world

Heaven Heaven
Heaven Heaven

is comin' down

Heaven Heaven

Heaven Heaven

is all around
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